today is the day of Jesus' resurrection.

_strangely, it doesn't feel like a crazy reminder for me.

maybe it is because, finally, FINALLY i have heard the truth, and it is glorious, magnificent~

i wish i had an extensive vocabulary, so that i could better explain how i feel, and perhaps give you a little taste of what i've come to believe is real in my life (Jesus).

i have always been there, in church, agreeing to everything pastors proclaimed, and believing that I was a bad person, i was a sinner, i needed to change, i needed to DO THINGS for God.

it is wonderful to know that THAT is not the case.

the problem is not: i am bad, and i need to be good

the root of the problem is: i am spiritually dead, and i need life.

& who is life?

Jesus Christ! (John 14:6)

i am set free, Jesus has REALLY got my back, and satan has got nothing, NOTHING on me.

there is a lot of shet that goes on in my life. and i always thought, yeah yeah Jesus is God but i need to do this, i need to do that or i'm gona be screwed, my life is gonna be a mess.

but now, in the midst of all this chaos, i have finally learned to stop worrying. God is GOD OF THE UNIVERSE, he can make any problem go away. He has the power to make you grow 7 inches if he wanted to, or if you want a house *poof! here it is! He is GOD. He needs nothing from me. but He loves me, sacrificed the one and only lamb (Jesus) so that I could become a new creation if Jesus Christ.

i find it sad (not pathetic sad) when people can only see God through miracles, spiritual gifts. as if God's creation (earth, YOU, ME!!!) isn't enough... look around you, you are ALIVE and the Spirit LIVES IN YOU. God is everywhere, He knew you before you were in your mother's womb......

i wish they would just realize that.